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Left alone in d room. feel empty & lonely. tired of everything. tired of missing him. tired of thinking about him. God, give me strength. i longed for You. Your presence in my heart gives peace to me. i am grateful i have U in my life. rite now, i wan U to know that i had been fall for him few months ago. i like him when i first met him at Medan Selera. he knows how to make me laugh at a broken heart. he owes by my side. he is a gud adviser. his sense of humour liven up our conversation. i feel very happy when i think about him. thinking about him is enough already to heal d hurt & wash away d pain. its been a long time since i had those feeling inside me. i never felt this way before. now i believe tat absence really makes d heart grow fonder. miss him more & more each day. can't stop thinking about him. he's owes in my mind. he's everything to me. before this, i never think of falling in luv again. mak owes tell me, "t belaki, ngiga laki k deka nguai. ang ninggal k bilik" i feel burden by those words. tats why i never thought of finding Mr. Right & getting married. adult's life r sure complicated. wish i dun have to go through all these kinds of situations. unfortunately, im one of them who live just to fulfill others desire. to satisfy. to please them. if them happy, then i would b happy too. is tat d only purpose of my life? i never had a dream. i dun even dare to dream. im afraid to dream. but now, let me have my own first & last dream. i won't ask for more. just tis time only. my dream is u vell. wish to b by ur side 4ever. i dun know when this started. but im sure tat i hav this kind of weird feeling towards u. dun know how to tell u. its complicated. am i too ego? hope i can b a little honest wif u & tell u wuts inside my heart. there's only one hope. may i ask u God? wut should i do? to let him go? may i know d answer? help me God. please help me God. i am confused. give me d answer