wuts d point of involving urself into relationship when in d end u r d one who get hurt?????????

its stupid. idiot. its not luv. its LUST!
never make a promise if u can't keep it.
if u dun want to take responsibility till d end, dun do it.
forget bout it.
u r not worth my tears.
i hate it when u make a promise.
i dun need it.
im fine.
i prefer it to b tis way.
i've already give u second chance. but, u never change.
u never appreciate d thing u hav in ur life.
u only realize it once u lost it.
u owes regret when sumthing precious once had before is not urs anymore.
u deserve it.

u know wut???

u can b a gud fren, but never a gud lover.
i already told u before.
but, u insist on trying. so, i giv u chance.
now, u see wut happen. u ruin our friendship since kid.
i luv u as a fren, not more than tat. it will never change.
now, u leave me alone. im wondering bout our relationship status.
i kept on asking myself wut i am to u. who am i in ur life????
i din't ask anything from u. i dun need ur money. i dun need ur car. i dun need ur damn gud looking face!
i just wan sumone to care bout my feeling. i may look strong, but deep inside me im too fragile. easily hurt.
mayb im selfish & demanding sumtime. but, its bcoz i need ur attention.
to whom do i share my joys & sorrows with, if its not with u.
u swear to b owes by my side, but u never did it. u leave me ALONE!
but its ok. i can handle everything alone. im already used to it.
i dun need u anymore. u can just walk away from my life if tat wut u want.
im giving u freedom to make choice & decision. everythings in ur hands.
damn wif all those promises u once made.
if u dun, i'll make my move first. im thinking of leaving u.
u r nothing to me. u never exist in my life. u r only a small piece of puzzle in my life. thanx for making me happy even though its only a short period of time. i really appreciate it. i'll never forget it.

u know why its difficult for me to luv u????

i can't trust u. i dun trust people, especially in relationship.
luv will fade away. it din't last 4ever.
people owes change. me too.
mayb tis is 4 our own gud. i dun wan to hurt anymore. its PAINFUL.
it left scars in me. it lasts 4ever. im trying to start a new life. without u. COMPLETELY WITHOUT U.

enough wif wut already happened. past is past.
i dun care if u hate me. yes, im cruel. im heartless.
but remember, u r d one who taught me to b like tis.
i try to luv u, to accept u in my life. i kept on telling myself tat u r d best 4 me. u r my MR. RIGHT.
but, im TOTALLY WRONG!!
i shouldn't done it.
i made a big mistake in my life. but tats ok. i learnt a lot from u.
life is not easy. sumtime, its unfair.

just wanna let u know..........

im glad i met sumone. i hav sumone in my life.
he s really important to me.
he appreciates me more than u do.
he cares bout me.
he s such a gud fren.
at least i hav sumone to talk to when im happy or sad.
he owes by my side.
whether im happy or sad, he s d one who cares bout me.
thanx buddy...
really appreciate u in my life.
u owes support me in any condition.
luv u owes...
GBU.

it is he...

lately, i knw sumone.
Vell....
im glad i met him.
he s such a gud fren.
he s owes there 4 me.
he owes by my side.
whether im happy or sad, he owes by my side.
when im down, he comforts me.
he knws to make me laugh at a broken heart.
his words ease my feeling.
he makes me 4get bout all problems for while.
wut a blessed to knw sumone like him.
vell...
im really glad i knw u.
really appreciate u in my life.
miz ur jokes, advices, etc.
u r part of my life.
thanx for everything.
may God bless u owes..

d beauty of V0ICE

The beauty of voice

It’s not in the choice of words
It’s not the classiness of accent
it’s not in the huskiness of speech
It’s the beauty of his voice that attracts

The purity of his heart is what reflects in the dialogue

When he is happy his joy is apparent in his talk
When he is bitterly angry his annoyance is clear in his silence amidst a heavy speech
His voice conveys every emotion
What he wants to say
What he doesn’t want to but intends to make sure you understand

That’s the splendor of his voice

At times when I don’t want to listen to even a single word from him
And the way he calms me down with a cute and adorable note
His effortless ways of convincing and explaining the walks of life is what is commendable
It’s the serenity of his speech what makes the dialect too innocent


That’s the ethereal beauty of his voice

Listening to him, Talking to him
Takes you to the exquisite journey of patience
The beauty of his voice is so magnificent that its takes you to dark realms of brooding ambience

A swirling eternal world of dreams

It’s in the genuineness of his words
it’s in the depth of his of speech
It’s is the elegance of his accent
It’s all in the delicate beauty of his voice

cause that’s the only thing that makes his presence felt.

i am just a girl

I am just a girl

Few dreams few thoughts

I am fond of fun and laughter

Be it sorrow be it life

I just want to forget all my issues and work it out somehow





I am just a girl

I love being talked about

Hard work is not just my life it is actually my life

I love being appreciated for things I do

I know how to get what i want I know how to set things right



I am just a girl

I have less time I know

There are so many things I want to achieve

I am not a super brain but my intellect is my strength

But still I have a lot to say, a lot to do, give me liberty, sit back and watch the play



I am just a girl

It feels good to be in love

It is great to have someone around

It’s awesome, but if you think you can rule me, think again

I might just be a girl, but I have the ability to topple your world and turn the tables



Don’t underestimate me

I know I have the power

I know I have the courage to stand and for my right

I am strong enough to deal with anything at all

But yes, I am just a girl.

st0ry 0f luv & eg0

"Sometimes love is for a moment, sometimes love is for a lifetime. "
"Sometimes a moment is a lifetime."
Once upon a time there was an island
where all the feelings lived together
One day there was a storm in the sea and the island was about to get drowned.

Every feeling was scared but Love made a boat to escape
Every feeling boarded the boat only 1 feeling was left.

Love got down to see who it was...
It was EGO..

Love tried and tried but ego wasn't moving
Also the water was rising.
Every one asked love to leave him and come in the boat, but love was made to love. At last all the feelings escape and Love dies with ego on the island...

Hepy Teacher's Day

16th May 2010.
this is my 2nd year t0 celebrate teacher's day as a trainee teacher.
really happy when sumone wish me "HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY"
its really meaningful.
now i realise how much it means to my teachers.
im really thankful to all my teacher since kindergarten until now.
to all my teacher at TBK Kemas Julau, SK St Alphonsus, SK Ng Luau, SMK Julau & IPGKTAR
once again i would like to wish u all........
HAPPT TEACHERS DAY!

I LUV U ALL.

MAY GOD BLESS U ALL.

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING.

tired.....

dear my sunshine,
rite nw i feel really tired.
TIRED. TIRED. TIRED. TIRED. TIRED.
tired of everything.
EVERYTHING!!!!!!
why life so difficult & unfair???
im tired of waiting,
tired of listening,
tired of moving on,
tired of loving u,
tired of trying,
tired of this life............
feel like wanna giv up.

my sunshine,
there s only 1 thing i knw,
there s only 1 person tat luv me so much no matter who am i,
there s only 1 person tat never leave me alone,
there s only 1 person tat never betray,
there s only 1 person.............
HE IS MY ONLY TRUE LOVE; JESUS CHRIST.

rite nw,
im alone in tis room.
all i feel is emptiness,
inside me, around me..
i am all alone.

ALONE.

LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE

What is it with Love?
That makes me
then breaks me?

When in love,
Do I truly love?

Is it really love,
Or do I think that I love?

Maybe I just love being in love,
Or love the idea of being in love?

I spent my whole life chasing love.
In the end the one thing I truly love
Could just be the mere pursuit of love.

EMPTY

Cold icy breeze.
I close the window.
Holding a cup of coffee.
I let it flow into my body, feels warm and tingling feeling as this vessel hunger for heat.
It's quiet.
Pin drop silent.
Not a single sound can be heard.

So, this is what it feels to be ALONE???????

I didn't realize how needy I am until now.
Not complaining about the solitude.
Not complaining being independent.
Not complaining about lonely.

but

It's empty.

really

EMPTY.

[T_T]

GLUE

I wish I can GLuE people together.

See, if you're stuck together, we can talk, face to face.
we can even play games.
If you don;t face each other, nothing will start.
Everyone has a present and has a past.
In order to understand, people need to talk face to face and let their feelings crash into each other.
Even families can't understand things unless it's put in words.
It's even important when you're not blood related.
But facing another person means that you might both hurt each other,
or end up hating each other.

However, pretending you understand someone else not saying anything is even worse.

People

Say things

and that's what makes "trust"

Think about it.

Mystery 0F FrieNdshiP...

When u c0me 2 kn0w the mysteries,
N0t a m0ment in time will b the same,
U will kn0w the inner peace 0f friendship,
When u hear them whisper ur name.

When u c0me 2 kn0w a gud fren,
& they take ur trembling hand,
They will lead u 0n a j0urney,
2 a far 0ff distant land.

When they quietly c0me 2 greet u,
In the early morning hue,
U will find a w0rld 0f w0nder,
As u waltz up0n the dew.

When they whisper ever gently,
In the earlier m0rning light,
When u feel their blessed presence,
It will ast0und u,
As the inter turm0il fades away.

When u find a nite 0f darkness,
And u stumble 2 the gr0und,
U will feel the brilliant light 0f them,
They will never try 2 let u d0wn.

When u c0me 2 kn0w the mysteries,
N0t a m0ment in time will b the same,
U will kn0w the inner peace 0f friendship
When u hear them whisper ur name...........

[^^,]

just wake up..
last nite was a great nite huh?
spending times wif my beloved frens at fun fair.
really enjoy myself very much.
woowwwwwwww............
luv it!!!
slept early coz i was very tired.
woke up at 7am, feeling hungry...wanna eat sumthing.
but,
very lazy to get up.
so, i just laid on my bed, read SCE3102's notes..
then, fallin' sleep again.
heard sumone knock d door.
who's tat???
its louisa comin'.
chit chat chit chat.......
louisa goin' back.
roomate still fast asleep.
feel lonely rite now.
can't stop thinking bout sumone.
really miz u dear....
r u coming today?
can i meet u?
shall we spend our time together?
its been a long time since i met u dear...
those questions kept on appearing in my mind.
but i don't hav d answer.
shall sumone help me to find d answer?
help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hate tis feeling..
im bored, hungry, lonely, tired, etc...
ouch....its already 11am.
OMG!
i haven't take bath yet.
hihihihi....
gtg now my sunshine.
wanna take my bath.
almost afternoon.
haaaiiiizzzz.....
hungry, hungry, hungry.....
bubbye....c u later. ^_^

its MEEE..

i'm n0t a perfect gurl,
my hair d0esn't stay 0wes in place,
i spill things a l0t.
i'm pretty clumsy.
sumtimes i hav a br0ken heart.
my frens & i sumtimes had a fight,
and.......
sum days,
n0thing g0es rite..
BUT,
when i think bout it,
& take a step back,
i remember h0w AMAZING life th0r0ughly is
& tat mayb...
juz mayb...

I LIKE BEING UNPERFECT!