stop!

hate it!
stop it!
lets end this relationship.
dun want to continue anymore.
tired.
hurt.
idiot.
loser.

mana janji-janjimu????

mana janji manismu??
setia sampai aku mati.
kini engaku pun pergi.
saat ku jatuh & sendiri

mana janji manismu??
mencintaiku sampai mati.
kini kau pun pergi.
saat ku terpuruk sendiri.

mana janji manismu??

saya, kamu dan semua..

dalam hidup ni, kita selalu punya masa...
tapi kita selalu cakap, "Maaf, saya tak ada masa". betul ka?

dalam hidup ni, kita selalu punya pilihan..
tapi kita selalu cakap, "Maaf, saya tak ada pilihan". betul ka?

dalam hidup ni, kita selalu punya banyak hal-hal di sekeliling yang berharga..
tapi, kita selalu tidak menyedarinya.
kita terlalu sibuk mencari, mencari dan mencari lagi...

tapi akhirnya...kita tak punya apa-apa.
kosong. zero.

ini ada 1 kisah..

dulu...
ku punya seorang teman.
yang boleh kuanggap sebagai teman tapi mesra.
bagiku,
dia bukan sekadar teman biasa.
dia punya tempat yang spesel dihatiku.
dia mencuri hatiku.
cewwahh...

dulu...
ku punya dia.
dia yang selalu ada disisiku.
saat ku perlukan kawan untuk becerita, dia hadir.
saat ku berduka, dia hadir.
saat ku gembira, dia hadir.

...................................................................................

tapi kini...

dia pergi.
meninggalkan luka di hati yang masih menanah hingga kini.
meninggalkan diri yang terkapai - kapai kerna mengharapkan dirinya hingga kini.
meninggalkan diri ini bersama sebuah harapan yang tak pasti.

tau dia cakap apa d fb?????
"She is beautiful, but i can't fall in luv wif her"

wut a joke...

well, i dun care now.
mayb i'm not pretty enough to make him fall for me.
hope u find someone that able to make u fall in luv wif her.
can't wait to see who's that lucky gurl...

huhh.....

wahai sang hati....

hati oh hati..
tabahkan & kuatkan dirimu.
biarkan dirimu keras sekeras batu,
agar kau tak bisa dilukai & dirobek sesuka hati.

biarlah hatiku sekeras batu kerna itu lebih baik daripada hati selembut bayu yang sentiasa bergelora.

ku tak ingin air mataku gugur kerna punya hati selembut bayu.
biarlah, biarlah ku dikatakan tak punya hati & perasaan.

He's so special..

my little cuzen, Christian Emmanuel Layang
being the youngest & the only son in the family does make him special.
but, there's more thing that make him special to everyone.
for me..he's so special.
being different from others.
he's an autism.
going to special school; Agape centre
having appointment with his speech therapist every month.
he's unique.
u know why???
he's very punctual.
yes mean yes & no mean no. no compromise.
love fried egg & milo very much plus plain water. no junk food, no noodle..
like to play alone, he has loads of toys which are quite expensive.
really good in playing computer games.
hate noises so much.
love to sit at the front seat in the car.
love to wear cap when going outside.
love to take bath very much; sometimes for few hours.
animal - lover.

that's make him so special in my heart. really love him.