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Left alone in d room. feel empty & lonely. tired of everything. tired of missing him. tired of thinking about him. God, give me strength. i longed for You. Your presence in my heart gives peace to me. i am grateful i have U in my life. rite now, i wan U to know that i had been fall for him few months ago. i like him when i first met him at Medan Selera. he knows how to make me laugh at a broken heart. he owes by my side. he is a gud adviser. his sense of humour liven up our conversation. i feel very happy when i think about him. thinking about him is enough already to heal d hurt & wash away d pain. its been a long time since i had those feeling inside me. i never felt this way before. now i believe tat absence really makes d heart grow fonder. miss him more & more each day. can't stop thinking about him. he's owes in my mind. he's everything to me. before this, i never think of falling in luv again. mak owes tell me, "t belaki, ngiga laki k deka nguai. ang ninggal k bilik" i feel burden by those words. tats why i never thought of finding Mr. Right & getting married. adult's life r sure complicated. wish i dun have to go through all these kinds of situations. unfortunately, im one of them who live just to fulfill others desire. to satisfy. to please them. if them happy, then i would b happy too. is tat d only purpose of my life? i never had a dream. i dun even dare to dream. im afraid to dream. but now, let me have my own first & last dream. i won't ask for more. just tis time only. my dream is u vell. wish to b by ur side 4ever. i dun know when this started. but im sure tat i hav this kind of weird feeling towards u. dun know how to tell u. its complicated. am i too ego? hope i can b a little honest wif u & tell u wuts inside my heart. there's only one hope. may i ask u God? wut should i do? to let him go? may i know d answer? help me God. please help me God. i am confused. give me d answer

Live are for living,
I LIVE FOR YOU.

Dreams are for dreaming,
I DREAM FOR YOU.

Hearts are for beating,
MINE BEATS FOR YOU.

Angels are for keeping,
CAN I KEEP YOU??

p/s thinking bout u. ^^,

Here are so many reasons,
Why I think of you so much.
And I don't mention it
As often as I should,
And I certainly don't show it
In all the ways I should.
I hope you have all the
Happiness that life can hold,
That's my wish for someone
As special as you!

I count the days until I may finally be free,

I feel like a prisoner that no one can see!

I'm always so lost but yet some how I am found,

I count the days until I may finally find a true best friend,

Sadly the days that i could may never end,

It feels like I am in a cage that i wasnt forced into,

I count the days until i finally decide to come out.

I'm just a girl who is afraid to live life,

Somehow I'm not afraid to grow up...

I count the days until I can finally say I am happy,

Instead I just always end up feeling so crappy.

Why do some people seem to find happiness while others cannot?

I count the days until i find the answer to all of life's questions,

I guess I'll never know them because it all takes experience,

No one in this world is fit to handle the truth....
the real truth.. or are we?

thought of d day..

just now when i sign in into my facebook account, i checked my notifications. quite a number of notifications even though i didn't sign in 4 just half a day. i view some comments from my frens. suddenly, there's a comment from this guy which attract me so much. he said tat,

"some of the great things in life are unseen that's why you close your eyes when u kiss, cry, or dream and even sleep...
but not forever bcoz he really love you in reality..
you've got to feel his heartbeat"

now i realised why people close their eyes every time they kiss, cry, dream or sleep.
theres sumthing tats unseen in which i dun realised till now.

thanx buddy. u make realise about d greatest thing in my life.
[^^,]

as we grow up, we learn tat even 1 person tat wasn't supposed to let us down probably. u'll hav ur heart broken, probably more than once.
& its harder every.
u'll break ur heart too.
so, remember how it felt when sum1 broke urs.
u'll fight wif ur best fren & mayb fall in luv wif them.
u'll blame a new luv 4 things an old one did.
u'll cry bcoz time is passing too fast
& u'll eventually lose sum1 close 2 u.
so, enjoy urself, laugh too much, & luv like u've never been hurt
bcoz every 60 seconds u spend angry or upset is a minute of HAPPINESS u'll never get BACK.